128. “Spooked!” marks the spot.

The road with a spooky spot for me.

A road often travelled

Richmond Rd*

Heading to football games,

A picnic at Cattai,

Helping on the ice-cream run.

At a specific place every trip.

Sensing danger – I shiver, imagining:

We stop. Roger climbs the fence.
Into the bush to visit someone. 
Never to return.**

Fear irrational?

From where?

Dreams.

Note:

* I think this road is now called The Northern Rd. My memory has it as Richmond Rd running from Kingswood Station to Richmond.

** My thought was that Roger was going to visit his grandmother on his father’side.

I haven’t been past this spot often in the last few decades but each time I have that same sense of something lurking. It is not a fear, really – more like an uneasiness. There is no obvious reason for this, maybe I dreamt an incident and this looked like the place in the dream. I wish I knew.

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59. A rare nightmare makes the rare scare, scarier.

In a house of peaceful sleepers –

A scream from a dream –

Bloodcurdling.

My dream:

I wake, afraid, needing Mum’s comfort.

(Sleep?)walking from our room to Mum’s, outside the bathroom

Stood an Alsatian – exaggerated, silent, menacing –

A rare scare

head turns, stares, bares teeth.

I scream, then really wake.

Or …

Really wake, then scream.

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18. A secret puff at 8 … a dope roped at 16!!

8 years passes …

Older kids, cool kids in school – anti-establishment, anti-war, tune-in, drop-out.

They hung outside the boys’ toilets.

$10 (was it $5?)* for a matchbox filled with …

Dreams.

Dreams of being cool.

Naivety & Desire – parents of suckers.

Lawn cuttings filled the matchbox.

Solace: I was not the only dope.

What it should have been ...

What I reckon it was - from the lawn.

Notes & Extra.

* I can’t remember the quantity of cash involved in this “deal” – a result of age(?) or misspent youth(?).

* Anyway, maybe Arpad (from whose lawn I suspect the mix came) did us all a favour – according to this article from The Times of India – although his mix was dried and cured.

* This blog could easily cough up incriminating or embarrassing material (especially for me!!), I hope it doesn’t cause anyone any problems. If you think you might pop up in a memory of mine and would like to erase it, let me know!!

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